Yay [05//14//07 [12:30am]] Happy Birthday to me! my boyfriend likes drugs and alcohol more than me! Yippee post

[01//19//07 [2:10am]] i love my boyfriend josh <3 post

[01//15//07 [1:08am]] Damn...so i havent written in this thing in a real long time now..i wonder if anyone even reads this shit anymore. Well i have a new boyfriend now...his name is josh. I Been with him for a little over a week now and been with him every single day. i missed the justin timberlake concert tonight because im really sick and ended up staying in bed all day. it fuckin blows i missed it but my boyfriend has been taking care of me. im gonna be graduating soon and gonna go see chelsea again for a couple months...im so excited. post

[08//13//06 [5:34pm]] Well, summer vacation has come to an end. Gay! School starts tomorrow...kinda excited to see people again but eh it sucks. its been real fun. last night was really fun...hangin with tara always makes me have fun! i was tripping on the rocks outside my house lol it was funny. i hung out with kelsey and leighann last night for the first time in almost over a month...it was fun. i missed those girls a lot. it sucks leigha isnt goin to mt view but o well. this year is an opportunity to meet new people, its gonna be fun. read [ 1 ] post

[08//02//06 [12:05am]] Damn today has been an interesting day. i found out a lot shit....that really bugged me a lot at first. i analzed it all wrong and just made kinda a big deal outa it. i even started kinda a lot of drama on accident that i didnt mean to cause. It all got solved and everything is cool now. Were cool. im gonna be happy for him. at least try to be even tho it will be hard since i still love him but life goes on. im only gonna be a junior, i got plenty of time. So im at a walmart somewhere near the tip of florida...stayin at walmarts suck. i wanna be home soon. this weekend i will be but i gotta work. Gay. Well im super bored with nothing to do. people need to get online and entertain me lol. ok well im out post

Moving On, Just Like U Already Did [08//01//06 [4:31pm]] Its weird how the only person i could ever trust...i found out lied to me all along. What else did he lie to me about? Who knows, But its pathetic. I guess i shoulda listened to everyone in the first place. This year is going to be different for me. I need to start taking care of myself, stop letting people walk all over me. Im so tired of being used. It hurts. Friends I also thought were real, were just fake. I hope to find some great ones this school year. I need a change..I need happiness. Hopefully I find what im looking for, but who knows. I lost touch with a lot of old friends, Im sorry. I'll fix it, i promise. I been in florida the past 3 weeks, being here has made me think a lot. Im finally letting go, Im stronger this time. Im done being afraid. Thank you for everything you put me through. This year will be great, Ill make it great. read [ 1 ] post

[06//07//06 [1:06pm]] So I Went to the panic concert last night with leighann, jordan, and eric. it was a lot of fun! me and jordan redolved things and now we are just friends. its better than nothin right? so panic puts on a great show. me and leighann were drenched when the night ended and we both passes out from bein so squashed in the front row almost. i got punched in the back by some bitch cuz her and leigh got in an arguement lol. and i also got beer spilt all over me! LAME! but yea it was cool. i missed summer school today...im gonna be pretty behind but w/e. read [ 1 ] post

[06//05//06 [9:54pm]] i never thought it was possible for a best friend to stab me in the back this bad. wait yes i did...all my friends have fucked me over. When will i ever find a true friend? when will that fuckin day ever be? i love cydnne, i need to see u read [ 1 ] post

[06//02//06 [12:32am]] So Wow i havent written in this thing in a long time. So much has happened since i last updated. so after dating for 11 months..jordan decided he cant be with me anymore and basically breaks my heart. whatever though, its hard but im trying to stay strong and get over but it but im kinda tearing up right now. my friends have been really cool lately. i love them all. i been with them a lot lately and its been really fun. i been partyin like every night and gettin pretty messed up. but its all been great havin my friends with me. i also work at quiznos now. i been workin there for like 2 or 3 months now. its been pretty fun cuz its so easy and all we do is goof off. it doesnt sound like a lot but a lot really has happened but goin in detail is something im to tired to do at the moment. so yea thats all tonight. post

Hurt [03//25//06 [9:48pm]] I dont think ill ever be the same. read [ 1 ] post

depressed [02//19//06 [10:34pm]] if i could erase you from my life, you would be gone post

[01//22//06 [9:51pm]] im going through a really emotional time right now. and i really really hate it. i hate caring so much about everything. my god, i want to not care anymore. i hate being unhappy. read [ 1 ] post

[01//21//06 [3:34pm]] I havent written in here in a long time. no one really does anymore. but yea im bored so i guess its time i do. so yea things are goin pretty good. i miss a lot of my old friends, a lot. But theres nothing i can do about that. i hate how everyone moves but im still stuck here. jordan is being wonderful. i was really sick and he surprised me with flowers and a huge monkey, it was adorable <3. No one has ever treated me so nicely and like an angel before. i love him a lot. when i get bored, i sit and think a lot. i dont really like who this one person is anymore. i love this person with all my heart...but its not the same anymore. I find out things i dont care to know and never thought this person would do, what has this world become? Everyone is out being stupid, being drunks, druggies, lil whores. its just pathetic. i cant stand these people anymore. its not me anymore. eh, i have a lot of things i want to write but dont want certain people to read so w/e. i hope everyone has a good weekend. post

[11//18//05 [5:01pm]] things are going good. some ppl are annoying me a lot lately, and the others i am loving to death. school is getting a lot better. jordan is being absolutely amazing. yea...its great. im happy for once read [ 1 ] post

[11//07//05 [10:00pm]] eh, i try not to let things bother me, but it does. i dont rly care what people think or say about me, but words do hurt. i try to be nice to everyone but yet i dont know what i do so wrong to people for them to hate me. i hate high school. its just not fun anymore. i cant wait to see cydnne this weekend, i need my best friend. post

[11//03//05 [6:46pm]] right now i am at jordans house and we just woke up. i am really tired and hungry. so today was an ehh day. stupid shit went down but its ok now. i need to learn to control my anger so im gonna work on that. but everything is amazing right now.i love him so so so much! :). Ps- Sorry Tara i really did lose my temper but i deeply apolize. i hope u can forgive me. read [ 2 ] post

[11//02//05 [5:31pm]] i hate how people use me, i hate how people dont understand, i hate people who try to get in the way, i hate the people i lost, i hate ppl for not caring, i hate the shit talkers Deep down i just really hate myself... the only thing i love is jordan and cydnne, i miss her so damn much And my old friends that have stuck by my side i love you too sarah. read [ 2 ] post

[10//23//05 [7:11pm]] You Are My Life.. You Complete Me.. Your The Reason I Smile So Much! Your The Reason I Love Life! You The Reason I Look Forward To School! Your Amazing.Your My Everything! Your IT FOR ME!! I Love You More Than Words Can Even Come Close To Describe! I LOVE YOU!! read [ 2 ] post

[10//17//05 [11:16pm]] 1. Reply with your name and I will write something random about you. 2. I will then tell you what song/movie reminds me of you. 3. I will pick an activity I would like to participate in with you. 4. I will say something that only makes sense to you and me. 5. I will tell you my first memory of you. 6. I will tell you what animal/robot you remind me of. 7. I'll then ask you something that I've always wondered about you. 8. I'll pick a flavor.. of.. jello..? (wtf? Don't expect an answer.) 9. If I do this for you, you must post this on your journal. read [ 5 ] post

cant stop thinking... [10//17//05 [12:58am]] i tryed to go to sleep a couple hours ago...i cant seem to fall asleep tho. i have so much shit on my mind..i cant stop thinking about things. the past memories are goin through my head, the present memories and seeing how much i have changed from the past. i miss my past so much. the only thing about the present that i love so much now is jordan...my past was by far the greatest..even if i was an ugly no friend kid. at least the ones i had i had a blast with. i miss my old friends...i miss how i didnt care about anything...i miss how no one caused shit in my life...i miss not havin guys interested in me(even tho i complained like hell back then)...i just wish things were before...i hate growing up and getting older...i love jordan very much but its like we fight every day..if this keeps up, will we ever last? its over stupid shit too..i never think before i speak and he lets things bug him too easily..i want things to work with him so bad. i miss the past, the only thing in the future i look forward to is being with him. i hope it lasts..i really do. read [ 4 ] post

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